I don't know what to think or say or feel ...

I'm so confused.
A few seconds ago I read the announcement from Ogawa Saki that she'll be graudating from S/mileage and Hello!Project ...in 4 DAYS! 


My favorite S/mileage girl will be graduating!
I can't believe it! I don't want believe it!
She is/was the reason why I even was following this group!
Amazing voice! Amazing Personality! Amazing beauty!
Such an amazing girl!


Her smile will be missed in Hello!Project ;_;


I respect her decision to live like a normal middle schooler ... but still I feel very sad about it. Especially because she even can't get an graduation concert!